Got Prayer?

Do you pray? It's ok if you don't. I know not everyone holds the same beliefs. I guess I just ask you this...Do you ever "talk" to God, the clouds, something...asking for help, clarification, peace? It seems like most people I know go to this place during certain times in their lives. I find myself asking God frequently for patience, understanding and wisdom during times when I am lacking. I internally thank Him for my happiness and cry to Him in times of sorrow. He always listens. Never judges. Always loves... The amount of love poured out by Him each day is unmeasurable. With all the love my heart has to give doesn't even come close to his. He IS love. How awesome is it to know that no matter what you have done, no matter the mistakes you have made. He LOVES you, unconditionally. Wow, is that a gift or what?!

Recently, I have had the chance to take my prayer time with Him to a new level. I, for the first time, prayed with Dave. This was something that didn't come easily for me as my prayer time has up until now, been my time alone with God. I admit, it was uncomfortable to be vocalizing my requests to Jesus. Having someone else hear my pleas. Yet, in a way, it was comforting to hear my spouse make his own requests. Asking God to watch over us. In those few short minutes, I think we both knew that God was hearing what our hearts were offering.

This week, I have one simple request. Take a moment out of your day to Sit. Reflect. Listen. You will be amazed at the result.

Lane's Victory

It is amazing how a small victory in a day can bring a smile at just the right time, a sigh of relief when stress is high, etc... I, or rather Lane, has received a victory in this journey we call life. We are reaching new levels in his therapy, causing him to "graduate" if you will, from the rigors of constant appointments and checkups. He has recently gone from monthly visits with his psychologist to a now 6 month time frame between checking in. To us, this is huge. Currently, he is still seeing his play therapist weekly, but that too is in the works to change. We have only a few more weekly visits before we try tapering back on the amount he is seen. As we left the office this morning, I was filled with joy at the amount of progress my boy has made. It was just a few short months ago that our nights were filled with extreme, violent tantrums. While getting him to complete a desired task was almost nonexistent. Today, Dave and I can give Lane a task to complete and find that we have very little to no resistance. Sure, there are times when attitude accompanies his response, but hey, we can handle that.

I then think back to what life was like a year ago...two years ago. It is a complete opposite from our life today. Today, Lane is thriving in so many ways. His school work remains high, he is expressing his emotions in a more calm, mature manner. He is realizing now that consequences are part of life and that the decisions he makes determine which way a consequence will go. As his mom, I could not be more proud of the strides he has taken throughout this journey. The struggles he has endured have been great, causing us all to at times question the process. Yet, my little guy has pushed forward. Never given up. Never forgotten that he is loved and encouraged by so many. He truly is a gift to me and I thank God each day for the fact that I get to be his mom. So I say Thank You to my sweet boy. Thank you for being you. Thank you for showing me that life is not always what we anticipate, but it is what we make of this life we have been given that counts.

A little rumbly in my tumbly

It has happened folks! Baby T. has officially made his or her presence known with a little kick here and a little punch there. So exciting! The last few days I have found myself not so patiently waiting for the next little flutter to come. Each time I feel it, I giggle inside. I can't wait until Dave and Lane are able to feel it move too. I told Lane as we were driving home and he so desperately wanted to feel his little sibling move about. I love it that he is so excited for the little one to arrive. Each time he talks to my belly or about the baby in general makes me even more confident in his big brother skills and how incredible he will be. Today as I left for work, he said he wanted to read to the baby tonight. Melted my heart :) 26 days and counting until we find out if we will be buying blue or pink. Patience is so hard to have at times like this! Have a happy Wednesday!!!

Today so far...

It snowed. Lane is happy.

Lane spilled his Rockin' Raspberry Danimal with his medicine in it on the counter. I then scooped it up with a spoon and put it back in the bottle.

Our snow blower (the one we JUST got serviced) wouldn't start, forcing Dave to shovel in the cold.

Lane is developing a nasty cough. I found some cough medicine but couldn't find the little medicine cup so I used a pampered chef measuring spoon. Hey, whatever works!

I think my dog ate her own poop...this is becoming a trend with her. EWWW.

Dave and I bumped into each other while he had his full coffee cup, causing me to blot coffee out of the carpet.

Dave's new windshield wiper blade broke. Awesome.

The day has to look brighter going forward, right? Oh, on a happy note.... My toes are nice and toasty in my boots and I am snuggled up in a warm sweater on the first REAL winter day of winter. :) Now it can stop and we can go back to our 50 degree weather! :)


Happy Thursday!

15 wks preggo

15 wk baby appointment was this morning. Happy times! :) Baby T is doing well. Heart rate is good and it was squirming away inside my tummy. I know this because Dave begged/asked our Doc if we could see the babe today. So he carted in his ancient ultrasound machine and we got to see Baby T! It is so surreal to see a life growing inside me. I can't wait to feel it move. I remember with Lane, I felt that first flutter while I was snoozing on the couch. I sat up in excitement, so happy to finally feel my little one. Hopefully just a few more weeks and the flutters will return.

Motherhood...wow...I am so blessed to be able to do this again! 1 more month until we find out if Baby T is a He or a She!



When did you first feel your baby move?

First comes marriage, then.......

Well, it seems that 2011 got away from me. Within the chaos so did my blog :( Boo. BUT.....I am really wanting/needing to get back on the writing wagon. My fingers and my mind miss it. It is so hard to believe that a new year has already begun as I am still trying to wrap my head around all of the changes from the previous one. I can't tell ya how excited I am for 2012! Dave and I are starting the new chapter of parenthood. This will be Dave's first ride in the parenting saddle while I feel like I need a BIG refresher course as it has been almost 7 years since my last rodeo. Hope it's like riding a bike and once I start it all comes back to me! Lane is ubber excited about the little one too. It makes me smile inside when he talks to my belly in hopes that Baby T. will hear him. Man that boy has a good heart and I can't wait to see it grow when he becomes a big brother.

Everything is so completely different this time around. Up until 2 weeks ago, I felt like death 90% of the time and was ready for bed almost the moment I woke up. Thankfully, I have overcome that hurdle and am feeling human again! We are 14 weeks down 26 to go. This go around, I am also finding myself so much more protective of the whole experience. When Lane was born, I was just a young buck of 23. I remember telling anyone and everyone about my pregnancy from the get go. This time, I have been much more guarded. Making sure I hit the milestones ensuring that everything is okay. I have wanted to be a mom x2 for so long. Yet, before Dave I thought my chances were slim. Growing up with 2 older siblings, I have longed to give Lane another. I feel so incredibly blessed to be able to do so.

Sometimes life can be filled with so much "stuff" that people lose track of what's important .This little one has brought me back to reality. It is making me look at myself as a mom, wife, friend, daughter, sister, etc... I hold all of these titles in my life and am so thankful for each and every one of them. The people on the other side of these relationships have helped mold me into who I am today and for that, I am so thankful. I can't wait for Baby T. to meet so many of them and start the molding process of their life.